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Winter Of Desire

by Rachel Mayfield

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1.
Conscience 04:53
I want you I really do Where is my conscience It ends at you So say, go away Go home alone Don't be weak But I am weak When it comes to you And I can't sleep for long Without you It's always that one step in life You take it, and it cuts you, it's a knife And when you've done it Will it be the same, no it's not the same It's never the same But oh, I need you I really do Some have said that my life is over If I don't give up and give this in Right now, I would give it all in to be with you I can't go for long without you It's always that one step in life You take it, and it cuts you, it's a knife And when you've done it Will it be the same No, it's not the same, It's never the same Don't take it if you want to think That you can be the same Don't take it if you want to think That you can be the same It's never the same
2.
Do Don't 04:20
Don't look at me Don't say a word I'll only say I haven't heard I'm not going to fall in love Don't be so nice Don't be so cool I'll stop myself from being a fool By letting myself fall in love Don't hold me close Don't say I'm the most I don't care Don't say trust me Don't gently touch me Don't dare I've been in love before I saw love desert me So now I'm afraid If I love again All it will do is hurt me Take your hand Away from mine While your kissing me decline From making me feel Like I desperately want to And as for how you seem to know What's really going on below Stop it, stop it You're making me fall in love You say I need it You say you've seen it In my stare And I almost believe you It's so hard to leave you And I'm scared, I'm so scared I've been in love before I saw love desert me So now I'm afraid If I love again All it will do is hurt me Do, don't, do, don't, don't do it, do, don't I've been in love before I saw love desert me So now I'm afraid If I love again All it will do is hurt me, hurt me, hurt me All it will do All it will do
3.
I'm Allowed 03:09
A million words in a great big city Where no one listens, and they have no pity Won't you hear my story or teach me to hold Can't you see I'm a child, doesn't matter how old I'm a little sensitive I feel too much I know I'd feel better from your touch I don't want to take this drug But my fear keeps me here Help me not to lose me I can't be happy until you tell me I'm allowed, I'm allowed, I'm allowed To be loved The money flies by from the back of the taxi But it doesn't stop here, it doesn't need me I want to get away, I want to make it work I just can't seem to stop this hurt I'm allowed, I'm allowed, I'm allowed To be loved Don't look at me, not if you can't see That I'm just shy, no I don't want to die Yeah, I'm lonely now, but I will figure out How to stop to start my life again I'll start again if you let me I'll start again if you love me I'll start again, I'll start again If you love me, I'll start again
4.
Abandon 02:47
Abandon yourself to me Don't let your past be the winner Don't hear those who wrongly taught That a lover is a sinner Find your hands and set them free Cradle your head deep within And hear the word, create it said Let me lose myself on you Don't send me back to when Giant thieves stole innocence We'll give no more to them Let me play I've held so much Now I want to try exploring my innocence until it makes you cry Be caught in this moment Be caught in me Be caught in this moment Be caught in me I've seen your sensuality I'd give my life to you Dedicate my time and love You just have to help me to
5.
Rescue 04:54
6.
Captured 02:06
I captured you for a while You loved me once We made a smile But I don't sleep easy And I don't have fun Knowing that I lost Another someone I tangled you You gave me peace I gave you hope And then release But I don't live freely With my freedom Lovers notice How I see them I hesitated not at all My passion is My greatest fool But I don't take lightly My confusion I am the one Who is truly losing But I captured you For a while You loved me once We made a smile
7.
There was a time when I knew what I was thinking There was a time when I knew that you would come There was a time when I knew that the day would bring The word that I needed your call and you'd ring I don't want to control you I don't want to get heavy Just don't ask me to let you go I'm not ready There was a stage when my kiss could keep you true And my body, my heart and my soul Were the only ones for you You'd take my side, and I'd make up your mind Until it almost didn't matter who was who I don't want to control you I don't want to get heavy Just don't ask me to let you go I'm not ready, I'm not ready Yes, I can see that things have changed I promise it's no bother that another is your lover It's just strange, so strange That although I'm so busy I could still let you see me whenever And I'm sure I don't want you back Just don't say never Don't say never
8.
Take me to God Now you've made us able To pull up a chair And sit at his table The invite is sent So before we relent Eat, drink, eat Take me to God Set ashore those sea men They've seen such a storm It's it's time to free them Onto dry land with the touch of my hand Push, pull, push Take me to God As I climb the mountain Rest on the rocks And echo your shouting Look, there's his light It's pure, and it's bright Run. run, run, run I have seen God And it's as it should be It's what he wanted For you and for me And all of the world Though it's been denied Because someone lied Someone lied, someone lied When it's the one Go to the sun
9.
Come out, come out, come out, come out I want to know who you are Stand in the place I've put you in Let's see just how far You can go to being, not who you have been With everyone else you knew I have never met anyone as beautiful as you I won't let those monsters take you and make you untrue Let go, let go, you have to know You don't need to take the wheel Believe the bliss you'll get from this Will let you do what you feel The deeper I take you The need to then break you Will lose the strength to push through I have never met anyone as beautiful as you I won't let those monsters take you and make you feel blue I'm here, I'm here, you have no fear When I lay by your side Feel my skin, allow me in There's nothing that you need to hide I have never met anyone as beautiful as you I won't let those monsters use you and make you untrue I won't let those monsters take you and make you feel blue Come out, come out, come out, come out Where ever you are

about

Rachel Mayfield is a singer, writer and mixed media artist from Birmingham, UK. In the 1990s, she formed and fronted Indie Rock band 'delicious monster' being hailed by the NME as a "Goddess of Indie Rock' and as 'exciting, unpredictable and dangerous as a ten-legged Tyrannosaurus. 

The band received critical acclaim for three top-ten singles and one album, placing them at the forefront of the cultured Indie Rock scene. Since then, she has diversified into solo albums and film and art installations while continuing to develop creative collectives.  
In 2015 her short film 'All Lovers Could Be Love'  from 'Venture of Belief' featured in the BFI love season with Poetryfilm.org. 

October 2017 saw the re-release of 'Winter of Desire' on Iron Man Records.

In November 2023, her short film from the series Truth to Material was nominated for a best documentary award and screened at the Birmingham Film Festival. 

Truth to Material is one element of a series of works released as seasons, that include songs, music, and film. 

For March 2024, she has joined up with New Reality Records to release songs from Venture of Belief 
newrealityrecords.bandcamp.com

Currently based in Birmingham, she is poised to release new poetry and prose work while completing a Master's degree at Birmingham City University. 

The Works:
Joie de Vivre (as delicious monster)
Transports of Delight
Winter of Desire
Venture of Belief
Truth To Material

Reviews:

'An extraordinarily gifted singer-songwriter - possessed of an exquisitely way-ward, multi-octave voice.' Paul Lester - The Guardian 
'Capable of soul-baring, sensual ferocity. Heart-wrenching.' Katatonic Magazine
 'Singer, songwriter extraordinaire.' Tony Moran - The Sutton Observer 

Rachel Mayfield is one of the most important women in contemporary music. She is a bruised yet strangely sensuous woman.' Andrew Field - Anthem 

'Star of the show, a rock deity whose free-falling voice is a wonder to behold.' Cumbernauld News 

 'Mayfield's voice is to sigh for, full of pure, unforced beauty.' What's On

 'An ambiguous, heady brew of power, politics, pleasure and personality all rolled into one.' Redbrick - Student Magazine 

'I F...ing Love this singer' Sarah Henderson - GWR FM
Swindon 

Pleasure with Brains.' Buzz Factory

 'A magnetic, transfixing stage presence. The lady has everything; a totally individual sound and a personality that dominates centre stage like the innocent but knowing eye of a technicolour hurricane.' Steve Morris - Brum Beat

 'Emphatic, Balanced, Artistry.' Nicholas Manthorpe - Evening News

'Rachel's Mayfield's voice is Swooping, demanding, pleading but always seductive.' Cornwall College - Student Magazine 

'Rachel flings her head back, opens her mouth, and this voice unleashes itself in all its controlled, terrifying beauty.' Sarra Manning - NME

'Mayfield's voice is infused with an unmistakable and exhilarating passion which sends a shiver down the spine.' Making Waves - Oxford

 'Raw energy and well-balanced sensitivity.' Leon Burakowski - Dudley Chronicle

 'Rachel Mayfield has wit and nerve.' Time Out - London

credits

released October 12, 2017

All songs written by Rachel Mayfield

Rachel Mayfield - Vocals/Acoustic Guitar
Toni Woodward- Cello/Vocal Harmonies
Kirsty Ford - Vocal Harmonies

Produced by - Paul Robert Gray
Recorded at - Saint Dunstans Church Hall, June 2017

Art Work - Dave Twist

Photography - Ian Whitney

Dedication - 'For Huck'

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I create collections of work that run as seasons, through the mediums of song, music and short film. I am currently developing my poetry and prose writing.
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Email:Puresavageuk@gmail.com
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